Posts by: artistikadamy

Is this a public forum?  I created this space to share my creative self.  However it sometimes feels I’m gagged and I can’t “speak” my mind at all.  My creativity seems to be on sabbatical of late, at least that’s how it feels.  Ideas that frequently flow are stock somewhere along the edges of fear.  They feel trapped and restrained.

But why?  Not sure if it is the rat race of the every day life, or just the fact that I don’t seem to find the time to get centered and listen to what spirit has to say.  My mind is always running and so is my body.  There is not enough hours in a day to complete every task.  Anxiety fills every cell of my being and the image of a chicken running around with its head cut off is the only sure result of such feelings.

I’ll leave it at that for now.

My husband and I spent a lovely dinner time with a good friend today.  It’s been a while since we last met for dinner, it was good to be able to catch up with how each of us is doing.  We changed our lifestyle about 3 years ago and she’s followed our progress mostly via Facebook.  We’ve seen each other a handful of times since.  So, today it was great to be able to spend great quality time.

Besides that there is not much to share.  We’ll there is something else, however, I don’t want to share it yet.  Maybe tomorrow when I have more details about it.

Questioning my sanity…

I’m not sure if I should call this a day of slacking off or a relaxation day.  I think it has a bit of both in a way.  By not executing a training run today (nor yesterday for that matter), I have managed to accumulate negative milage for the week and also affecting my cummulative total for the year.

I keep going back and forth with this “commitment” to 2,015 miles in 2015.  As of right now, I feel it is an unattainable task.  But if I break it down into smaller pieces, I know it’s doable.  I have a friend that asked me last week if I was sure of about undertaking this feat.

Well my friend, I’m not!  However, I refuse to go out without a fight.

I know doing the races for this year alone will accumulate a decent amount of miles towards our target.  Also the long training runs on the other 42 weekends will tally up towards that final goal.  During the week we are also doing some shorter runs and during strength training 2-3 times a week, the cardio portion included with it, should add another couple of miles. Once I think of it from that perspective, then it does not seem as impossible.

I’m thinking that my fear of commitment is bigger that the task to be performed.  In the meantime, I’ll just keep marching on and letting the miles add up on its own merits.

With that, I’ll sign off for now.

Nothing to say today!

Just sharing a picture of Misty looking pretty amongst all the toys.

Enjoy!

Working at the computer lab one more day and everything is even crazier than yesterday.  It all seems as if in a movie.  I was surprise however by one instructor helping at the lab that asked for my help in many occasions.  The same instructor that figures that tutors are not good for students.  That was kind of ironic.

Getting up earlier than usual (7am) to go to work and then working until about 9pm, definitely made for a very long day in my book.  I’m just about calling it quits for today.  Not without first adding something to my daily journal.

Hope that tomorrow is a better day overall and that the tiredness I’m feeling will soon be a thought of the past.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow…

1st day back to work and it already seems like I’m running around like a chicken with its head cut off.  Getting ready in the morning took a bit longer than expected.  With temperatures in the low tens outside getting moving took a lot more willpower, determination and energy.

The last two weeks getting up at 8:30am was the norm.  Today getting up at 6:30am turned into 7:00, 7:15 and finally 7:35am.  As it was, I had 40-minutes to shower, get my coffee and breakfast going, prepare my lunch box and get out of the house by 8:15.  Needless to say, getting up a bit later that I wanted, put me out the door at 8:30am instead.  I’m just hoping that tomorrow will be a better day to get going.

Today, I’m schedule to work at the school’s main campus cyber café, helping students print bookstore vouchers and schedules for their classes.  It has gone in spurs for sure. Students coming and going.  Although there were still more students awaiting help, by the end of my shift, I’ve helped many students complete their intended tasks.

All in all a good first day at work.

We are back home, and we are taking the morning really slow, since we arrived at home late last night.  Not only did we arrived late, we stayed up late putting some stuff up and visiting with Zombie and the girls.

After cleaning all litter boxes and straightening around some, we brought Zombie upstairs and we spent quality time with him and Misty, Dusty, and Amy Darkside.  Needless to say it was a mad house seeing that they all were demanding a little bit of personal attention.

Once everyone was settled, I decided to flip thru the list of programs that were saved over the period we were on vacation.  There is a good 10-15 hours worth of show recorded.  The interesting thing is while at the beach, I was able to unplug from the TV except to listen to music channels. I think I watched one movie, maybe two while I was there.  And the DVDs we took to watch you may ask?  Well, those came back home untouched.

All in all, we had a good relaxing time.  Did a lot of reading, a lot of writing, updated another website, and continued with our running training.  I would say, a productive vacation indeed.

Happy 3-Kings Day!

I’ll be keeping this one really short today since we’ll need to be getting ready soon, packing and organizing, and cleaning before heading back home.

Earlier today, we went out for a 6-mile walk on the beach.  It’s been a gorgeous day so far and while waking we finally saw some dolphins.  To me, they are the most playful creatures on earth.  And they certainly know how to have some fun.  Every year, we look forward to spotting our friends swimming along.  For some reason this year they haven’t cruised by in front of the condo at all.  We saw these while on our walk.

Now, listening to some music on tv, I feel so relaxed I refuse to move.  I don’t want to loose this feeling of peace and happiness.  But the time for us to go is fast approaching and we better get on the move if we are to get home before today is over.

So for now, that’s all!

3 Kings’ Day Eve

In most catholic countries, tradition calls for a shoebox full of grass for the kings’ camels that will bring presents to children.  Like Christmas in the US but not as commercialized as the “big” holiday.  As a kid I looked forward to setting by shoebox under my bed.  Not sure how we never noticed 3 big camels entering our rooms to eat out of that box of grass. I remember one year forgetting to put our shoeboxes under the bed, so our presents were left outside in the yard where the grass was plentiful for the camels to eat.  And then, just like that, no more present after age 12, we’ve graduated to adult’s “Present” day aka “Christmas” day. Not sure if it had to do with innocence lost, but once we turned 12, we were no longer consider children.

Thinking of this made me wonder about traditions. Traditions are so important to family values.  At least they used to be. Too sad that in this day and age the value of traditions is dwindling down.  Kids no longer appreciate tradition the way we did.  Family values seem to be receding too.  A materialistic mentality has taken over promoted by consumerism.  It seems like the important values are being replaced by shallow and meaningless actions.  Just an observation!

On this 3 Kings’ Day eve, I’m hoping for those traditional values to come back to stay.  I’ll step outside tonight and wish upon a star for a much better world, a world more compassionate and respectful for one another.

Change starts with me!

There are only so many times a year I can stuff myself with unhealthy food.  Usually these binges revolve around holidays or traveling.  On Valentine’s Day, our anniversary, our birthdays, and during Thanksgiving, and Christmas all the way until after the end of the year when we return from our vacation at the beach, I usually don’t log what I eat, although I do keep up with the miles we run/walk.  And, since we changed what we eat to a vegan diet, 99% vegan for me, we haven’t put on the usual 10+ pounds that most people gain over the holidays. It’s worse for me because my birthday is usually as early as the week before Thanksgiving.

Every year the binging starts on my birthday.  This past years it fell on the Wednesday week before Thanksgiving.  Then we have family dinner on Thursday, short run/walks on Friday and Saturday and 26.2 miles at the Space Coast Marathon on Sunday.  So, I refuse to keep close watch and logging what I eat because I know the calories can rack up quick. However, while on vacation, it makes me feel better when we go out for a 10-mile run one day and can sit around the next counting on the calories burned the day before.  And so the cycle continues for however many days we stay on vacation at the beach.

All that being said, once we return home, we’ll buckle down and do better with what we eat and exercise with much more intensity than while on vacation.