Where do we go from here?

By on August 28, 2005

After reflecting about life and the challenges it can bring us, we often find ourselves at a crossroads. There is always a decision to make. When we look at life from that perspective, we recognize opportunities in everything we do.

Life is Choices! The choices we make determine the life we live. Many moons ago I had an experience that changed my life. Ever since I’ve long for a time when I can feel as I did that moment in time.

A friend of mine took me to the beach in San Juan. That day I wanted answers to the many questions I had about my life. I took a walk by the shore, and later, sat on the rocks contemplating a precious sunset.

As the night fell, I saw the reflection of the full moon rising over the waves. I had a perfect view of the Convention Center’s outdoor stage and noticed lines of yacht lights come to life at a distance. However, staring at the reflection of the moon as it rose over the water, I felt an overwhelming presence that sweep over me. It was a tidal wave of emotions that overpowered me. I strongly felt the presence of God whispering, “Peace, be still.” I closed my eyes and sang one of my favorite hymns.

Tears ran down my face as I ponder the message I’d received. I realized with sudden understanding that the enchantment of that moment was the answer I’d been waiting for. I made a promise that day to live life and every day, as if it is the last one I’d ever have.

I’d heard people say that you could go so fast in life that you can meet yourself on the road! More over, I’ve met myself on the road many times since my experience. I’ve spent years walking among others always feeling alone. Always seeing the destruction caused by my forgetfulness. Every so often, I’d found myself at an ocean shore longing again for that time of communion where I once found that overwhelming love, peace and joy.

Today, I wonder, how I can recapture that overwhelming feeling once more. What have I forgotten all this time? Is it looking within to find the wholeness, peace, and love of God or, is it discovering that peace is a feeling that always abides in my heart.